

The valve that’s squeezing at my insides releases a little, and for now- that’s totally enough.
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4:30 AM: Riiiiiiiip *snap* CRASH For once I wake up before Carrot and pivot a little on my neoair. The mosquitos have swarmed to the vestibule of our little single wall shelter and they are all clamored up in the peak built by the trecking pole, which holds the whole fragile thing together. I watch […]
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Tick Tock leaves tomorrow and she wants to get to a road early enough to hitch to her car while it’s still light out. Jukebox and Homework are natural early risers, up and out to hike with the sun. They collectively decide that tomorrow will be a 26 mile day to make that hitch happen. […]
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I fall asleep in my leggings, two pairs of socks, my knit cap, my short sleeve, my long sleeve, my puffy and my gloves (almost every piece of clothing I have with me for five weeks) and then I am awake, roasting alive in the dawny gloam and sweating rivers down my temples. Sometime in […]
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I wake up in a completely dark room with white noise whir. It’s somehow 8:30AM, a time I haven’t slept until for basically forever and I can’t believe it. Black out curtains and a white noise machine sure do go a long way for sleep, I tell you what. Carrot has been awake since 6, […]
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IT’S FUCKING TOWN DAY!!! I think this before I even open my eyes and I shoot up, uncharacteristically ready for my morning chores. Deflate neoair, check Make weird hot porridge with granola and nut butter, check Brew coffee, check Take a shit/try to dig a cat hole that doesn’t fill me with shame, check/check Brush […]
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I toss and turn all night for no reason. My body doesn’t hurt, it’s quiet and warm, we have a flat campsite on a perfect ridge. I vacillate between being just a little asleep and being just a little awake but never really achieve either. I toss on my neoair, as gently as possible, trying […]
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Here’s the thing about long distance hiking: It really can kind of always be something. It can be smoke or heat or blisters or rough terrain. It can also be a mixture of high emotional highs and low emotional lows. It can be the general discomfort of sitting too long with your brain. This is […]
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I wake up to Jukebox and Homework shuffling. They’re so quick every time, up and out the proverbial door with record speed and I’ve come to accept that mornings and nights might be the only times I get to see these friends. This is just the way it is, and instead of mentally berating myself […]
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It has been a month of weird sleep for both Carrot and I. I’ve been excited or anxious to get hiking, or restless about the state of the world and a few details about my own life, or in pain. Carrot’s been traveling via red eyes from state to state, awakened by grizzlies huffing and […]
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